[ it was easier to stay in the watchtower and do nothing at all, guarded against the uncertainty of life by his temporary removal from it.
but that’s not living. ]
i’ve been talking to armand about a lot of things about the void
[ a morbid sort of logic to it, isn’t there? when what the wolves were subjected to isn’t so dissimilar to bob’s lot. blackouts. a loss of control. still you, despite all that. ]
he can see it in my head i think he could tell me, if the training starts to make it worse
don't be we'll take as many precautions as you want but i need you to understand that if anything does happen, you're not the one to blame i ain't gonna hold anything against you
[Sure, Bob's other side might not be quite the same as the Winter Soldier. But voluntary or not, neither of them actually asked for the lives they've been forced in to.]
we can invite armand along if that'd make you more comfortable too
[They might not have ever met before. But any friend of Bob's...]
i know but i don’t want there to be anything to blame me for
[ the commune and the games hurt everyone enough. ]
i trust him he probably has better things to do, but he can keep an eye on it even when he isn’t right there i think it’s like tuning into a radio station for him
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but i got it
no boyfriends or girlfriends
just presidents
first ladies
package deals
[ 😇 ]
okay okay
i really wanted to say
you seem like you've been happier lately
and that's good
i like to see you happy
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it's messy, and we're still figuring things out
but
yeah
i'm done fighting it anymore
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you do plenty of fighting back home
you don't need to do it here
[ see? not so bad. ]
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[Fighting. Because the alternative is giving in. Something that none of their team will let the others do.]
even more reason we should find some time to train together
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yeah
i was thinking that too
[ even though it scares the shit out of him. what if by exercising his abilities at all, he’s cracking the door on the void, yawning ever wider — ]
i ended up in that stupid boxing ring twice
what kind of sex club also has a fight club anyway
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[Fighting, that is. There's a whole world of kinks out there, and even after all these years, he knows he's barely touched the surface of it all.]
are you worried?
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scared
[ it was easier to stay in the watchtower and do nothing at all, guarded against the uncertainty of life by his temporary removal from it.
but that’s not living. ]
i’ve been talking to armand
about a lot of things
about the void
[ a morbid sort of logic to it, isn’t there? when what the wolves were subjected to isn’t so dissimilar to bob’s lot. blackouts. a loss of control. still you, despite all that. ]
he can see it
in my head
i think he could tell me, if the training starts to make it worse
[ a failsafe they didn’t have at home. ]
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we'll take as many precautions as you want
but i need you to understand that if anything does happen, you're not the one to blame
i ain't gonna hold anything against you
[Sure, Bob's other side might not be quite the same as the Winter Soldier. But voluntary or not, neither of them actually asked for the lives they've been forced in to.]
we can invite armand along if that'd make you more comfortable too
[They might not have ever met before. But any friend of Bob's...]
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but i don’t want there to be anything to blame me for
[ the commune and the games hurt everyone enough. ]
i trust him
he probably has better things to do, but he can keep an eye on it even when he isn’t right there i think it’s like tuning into a radio station for him
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and neither is anything that could happen here
if you ever need reminding of that, you come find me
i'm gonna talk to him then
if he wants to be there, we'll find a time that works for both of you
[Because needless to say, any of his own plans will be changed to match.]
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okay
[ why is the concept of bucky and armand talking kind of insane. hm. ]
cool
yeah
just
for the record
it is like that with armand
what you asked about with embry
[ before you smell him again ffs ]
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[Refusing to make this awkward. Its not like he's ever spoken to Armand before, anyway. Well, until now, that is.]
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[ have you met bob? ]
just didn’t want you to be surprised
you’re both kind of intense
[ in very different ways. ]
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mostly
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and armand is very nice to me
you probably do have stuff in common though
being older
[ lmao ]
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no respect for their elders
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he is always playing your kind of music on uh
records?
i’m obviously too young to know what those are
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i thought vinyl came back in to fashion again
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[ at the club 🤙 ]
you saying it like that is not helping your case, man
don’t worry i like it
[ i like you. ]
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the kind of dance that could sweep a dame off her feet
[Yes, he's absolutely hamming it up here. But he likes this more playful side of their friendship. So why not lean in to it?]
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[ no complaints ! ]
deal
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but you'd make a good partner too
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the balance that comes with the super everything is helping though