[ the label matters less to him than bucky wanting him — than a desire for things to continue. having never used them before, what meaning do they have, unless someone makes it so? teammate feels inadequate but then so would boyfriend, probably. except the security and ease of it appeals, too. something still to be figured out.
all of which are lesser than the thing he actually wants to talk to bucky about, but doesn’t know how to broach, when it goes so far beyond him. were you really going to let tony hurt you? while me and yelena sat back and watched? ]
you said there was stuff we still needed to talk about back when we left the commune is there?
[ only one person here is a trained professional !!! ]
kinda thought you were the one with specifics here so i’m okay then as long as you’re okay
[ crushed it. ]
and if you ever want to ask me about something too, you can. i’ll actually answer this time. [ unlike when he lied (badly) about embry. ] not that i’m full of secrets or anything
[ especially not after going spelunking in his haunted house of a brain. ]
[He doesn't want to push for more from Bob than he already gives. Doesn't want to ask questions and risk breaking the trust they've built. But the offer does still settle something in him, concern being replaced with relief, and paving the way for something else instead.]
i want you to know who i am, the bad and the good i want to tell you everything i've done but if i start, i ain't gonna stop, and i don't want you to look at me different once you know it all
[ immediate. sure. whatever bucky is or isn’t — boyfriend, teammate, brother, friend, more — bob wants to know him from the inside. all the things they leave out of the articles and exhibits. ]
next time you want to, [ when they’re together. when he’s looking at bucky across the sofa with bob’s feet in his lap. when they’re back from the morning runs that bucky insists still matter, despite the serum and the sentry. ] just start telling me. i won’t look at you different. i’ll just look at you like i always look at you. because you’re you.
[ the guy he likes so, so much. who helped save him from the dark and still protects him in the daylight. ]
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which i really don’t want to do with you and yelena
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we ain't them
you're not gonna fuck anything up with me. so don't worry
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is there stuff i should do to not mess it up just in case
if we’re
whatever we are
i haven’t done any of this before
i mostly just fucked around while off my face, man
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all it means is that we figure this out together
[Not that he plans on ever putting a label on things. That makes everything too official.]
how about we stick with one rule?
we talk
either of us does something we're not comfortable with, we talk before it becomes a problem
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that sounds good
[ the label matters less to him than bucky wanting him — than a desire for things to continue. having never used them before, what meaning do they have, unless someone makes it so? teammate feels inadequate but then so would boyfriend, probably. except the security and ease of it appeals, too. something still to be figured out.
all of which are lesser than the thing he actually wants to talk to bucky about, but doesn’t know how to broach, when it goes so far beyond him. were you really going to let tony hurt you? while me and yelena sat back and watched? ]
you said there was stuff we still needed to talk about back when we left the commune
is there?
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don't think there's enough hours in the day to tell you everything
are you after something specific?
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kinda thought you were the one with specifics here
so i’m okay then
as long as you’re okay
[ crushed it. ]
and if you ever want to ask me about something too, you can. i’ll actually answer this time. [ unlike when he lied (badly) about embry. ] not that i’m full of secrets or anything
[ especially not after going spelunking in his haunted house of a brain. ]
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i want you to know who i am, the bad and the good
i want to tell you everything i've done
but if i start, i ain't gonna stop, and i don't want you to look at me different once you know it all
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[ immediate. sure. whatever bucky is or isn’t — boyfriend, teammate, brother, friend, more — bob wants to know him from the inside. all the things they leave out of the articles and exhibits. ]
next time you want to, [ when they’re together. when he’s looking at bucky across the sofa with bob’s feet in his lap. when they’re back from the morning runs that bucky insists still matter, despite the serum and the sentry. ] just start telling me. i won’t look at you different. i’ll just look at you like i always look at you. because you’re you.
[ the guy he likes so, so much. who helped save him from the dark and still protects him in the daylight. ]